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I don't think I like my job. Maybe I do, but I think I'm kind of depressed right now. I think this is how I felt the summer before architecture school started: like crap, because all I was doing was working. But unfortunately, I'm learning that the people at work in general bug me. I'm very uncomfortable around them, and do not feel like I can be myself. Today, we had a surprise field day (disguised as a fire drill), where we went to Gas Works and played games. I was definitely not prepared, and I felt pretty anxious about the whole thing. I'm stressed about my projects, because they are not going smoothly. But it was overall fairly fun, just awkward. We did a wheelbarrow race, and I'm pretty sure my thong was showing the whole time I was wheeled. I don't think I was the only one who was not totally stoked to find out we were going to be messing around for 3 hours. I'm sure more than one person may have been doing a timed experiment or trying to get something done before the end of the day, and thought we would be back shortly. I'm probably just being a brat, but if I was going to dick around outside all day, I'd like to be prepared.

So I think I'm just going to back off from these people from here on out. I've tried being outgoing and friendly. Obviously we are of different breeds. Being civil doesn't hurt, it just kind of sucks when you wish you could be more. But hey, it's a job. I'm learning stuff. I'm getting paid. Whatever.

I am feeling pretty crappy in general lately. I'm moody, cranky, and just want to sleep all the time. I don't think I have enough going on. I'm hoping that when school starts, I'll feel much better. That's a long ways off. This is why it sucks that the people at work are so strange and cold. I just want people to hang out with.

Bleh. I'm done. I'm over it.

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jonesypoo
Aug. 6th, 2008 03:31 pm (UTC)
Thanks big sis, I wish you were here, too. Meh, such is life.

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